11.5 years ago I was hopeless, lost, trapped. Trapped in my own self created prison. Trapped in the never ending cycle of addiction. I am a crack cocaine addict. I am an alcoholic. My life was one big ugly mess & everywhere I went I left a path of destruction. Homeless & hopeless. That’s where my addiction took me. Down into the depths of hell. The darkest places I’ve ever been. I hurt my family, my friends, my Mom….. my Mom cried…. a lot. I left my kids. That was the worst. Took me years to forgive myself…… still struggle with this today. And then one day something happened. I had an experience that changed my life forever.
In December of 2007 I stopped using and I stopped drinking and I started the long journey to becoming healthy mentally physically and spiritually. It hasn’t been easy. There’s been a lot of tears and a whole lot of fist punching into my pillow late at night. There’s been ups & there’s been downs. There’s been heartbreak & joy. After years of degrading myself (decades) there’s been a whole lot of work put into rebuilding.
Because I know this side of addiction & what it takes to overcome it I have to say that for a recovering addict YOU ROCK!! The struggle never stops. The emotional scarring goes deep. Deeper than you can imagine. So if you made it through another day clean & sober I applaud you. From the depths of my soul. You are truly an EVERYDAY WARRIOR!!!!!